surprise, surprise! i actually posted just 2 days after the last post. funny...
i hate it the way i just oanic so easily sometimes. especially if it's about forgetting to bring something.
i would be in the car... then silently, when i find out that 'hey! i forgot something!' , i panic like siao. quietly lah... except for the occasional sighs....
ah crap.
that day, i forgot to bring yu lin's birthday card for everyone else to sign.. then, onoz! forgot. typical...
gah. i can be so forgetful at times.
anyways, i was practically freaking out. dunno why. i panic alot when it comes to forgetting things.
so i was panicking on what to do... cause michelle actually reminded me to bring it the day before when uncle weng him sent tabi and i back home. and i just hate it even more so when my mind starts thinking of how michelle and xp would react... i hate it when ppl get disappointed because of me. it makes me feel damn sad.....
anyway, so i somehow avoided confronting them.. pathetic, really. but that's what pretty much happens when you get all panicky. you avoid stuff.
then after church, i smsed xp. i really cant believe myself. i had to actually say to myself, "ok.. 1, 2, 3... hit send!!!" i cant help it. it might have been easier if xp wasn't a guy, but unfortunately, he is. but then again, it would have been awkward.
no offence to any guys, but it's just that i have Never, actually talked to a guy outside my family before. really. when i say talk, i mean face to face proper conversations. not just "uh. yeah. ok. sure." argh. i am so unsociable. and i really cant help myself. which sucks.
ah well.