move along;
"taufik!"
"ta-oooofiick!!"
"what the fick, tau?"
heh.
today is friday the 13th.
not that i am at any point superficial about all these 'bad luck' stuff, but today's been pretty crappy.
heck, it was a piece of shit.
sorry for being vulgar, but i'm really pissed now. i know i dont have a right to be, but then again there are alot of things i dont have the right to do, and alot more things i have rights for, but am forbidden to do.
super ironical.
got back progress report and felt like jumping down the school building. i just want to run away to some nice ulu place and be a loner.
got B4 for maths and DnT(surprise, surprise).
english and geog screwed with C5. (i feel damn cheated)
D7 for chinese, which (bigger surprise,) i actually feel happy for, because i actually ALMOST passed by 2 marks.
ahem. that's an ALMOST.
overall had 64.9 percent.
i dont know about you guys, but looking at it by itself didnt seem too bad at first.
then i saw the cohort's.
bloody comparision ruined everything.
i wanted to go get a _____ and ________, but (fortunately) it got confiscated by my dear friend lavelle. (i owe you man.)
anyway.
i was still miffed when i went for band. went into moodswings cause then i felt really happy, then later when i was teaching rei xue i felt overly impaitient. (sorry reixue! i hope you didnt think i was angry at you or something.) if it werent for sophia i think i might have actually gotten angry. :\
went home. along the way told mum about my results. i had hoped that it would help me feel slightly better, but in the end i just ended up feeling guilty and dissapointed.
dad found out about my papers later(of course, he would have eventually.) and went into another one of his 'so what do you think went wrong' sermons. (to which i answered with the standard answers.)
since i dont know what to say, and speaking my mind would only get me into deeper shit, i might as well just answer what they want to hear.
--
maybe we've been living with all eyes half open.
yesterday is dead and over.
when everything is wrong, we move along.
i cant explain myself at all.
right where i belong, inside this sad, sad song.
i could write it better than you ever felt it.
will we always say we tried?
even the best fall down sometimes, even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
when it's killing me when will i really see all that i need to look inside.
which came first, the music or the misery?
i'm tired of being what you want me to be, feeling so faithless, lost under the surface.
well, i'll try to do it right this time around.
i'm left to sweat over a dying race.
dont write a word, cause i wont reply
you can take what you want from me.
unwanted like i've lost all my value.
the best of us can find happiness in misery.
pressing on, all my distress in going, going gone.
-all american rejects, the hush sound, fall out boy, linkin park, red hot chili peppers, daughtry, the academy is, lost prophets, relient k, switchfoot.